Warning: Bitter self indulgence
I’ve decided to reread ‘The Education of a Young Liberal’. I think it will provide a nice bookend to my time as a ‘hack’ (well my abject failure version of a hack). I read the book when it came out in 2006, which roughly corresponded with my involvement and understanding of the national scene in YL’s and ALSF.
By that I don’t mean I was in any way some sort of heavyweight or player, I most assuredly was not. By national scene I merely mean that I was involved in the organisations, attended the national conferences, and started to meet and become acquainted with the people who WERE the heavyweights and players. My first ALSF conference was in 2005, and by 2006 I became more privy to the goings on.
So the book came out in 2006 and I like most little hacks and wannabe hacks quickly consumed it. Whether the events in the book are ‘true’ or not doesn’t particularly concern me.
Putting aside matters of fact, the book is immensely useful however for the narrative it paints. It represents a journey from the very beginning to the very end and the journey of ‘Hyde Page’ resonates with me and I think with others.
Hyde Page goes from an extremely naïve newbie, to loyal foot soldier, to aspirant, to player, to burn out. There is a corresponding ethical journey which I also find very interesting. Part of the debate over the book was whether Hyde Page painted himself in too nice a light and I’ll leave that judgment to people who were involved in the NSW YL’s at the time. However, one can say that the book doesn’t really paint anyone in a nice light.
The group, the right, Hyde Page, all come out of the book looking pretty grubby. I guess we can say that the real Hyde Page was probably a fair deal worse than the Hyde Page of the book. In that, the ethical journey stands out in that Hyde Page’s ethical journey is a downward spiral into very unethical behaviour.
In essence that is THE natural journey for the student/youth political hack. Youth politics is a fringe activity of society, and an enclosed society with its own subculture and morality (or perhaps amorality). A downward spiral of ethics is the natural journey because unethical behaviour is the norm. Lying is not only acceptable, it is expected. Bullying behaviour is not only acceptable, it is expected. Oscar Wilde’s saying that “true friends stab you in the front” is very true for politics. Gossiping, exclusion, conspiracy, and hierarchy are all tools commonly used and abused.
The thing of it is that eventually you come to forget that this kind of behaviour isn’t on. You get so caught up in it all that not only do you embrace unethical behaviour, your entire perspective on morality shifts.
This is probably why I find Tim Andrews’ introspective writing so interesting because (in relation to his life as a hack) it paints the picture of a guilty conscience. Tim (who seems to have lost his taste for hackery), was one of the more honourable people involved.
It’s not that I was particularly the victim of any of this (or if I was I remained blissfully unaware). I only felt the sting of betrayal from one group of people and by the end I saw it coming. It only ever affect ACT politics and I never really cared that much about the ACT anyway.
I was never really the subject of any particularly bad behaviour, although perhaps that was simply because I never had any power to warrant attention.
However I did see myself change. Gradually I started to do things that were wrong, and I’d forget that they even were wrong. It took a very negative reaction from my fiancée to my behaviour at a branch meeting to wake me up, and even then it was a slow reversal. Politics had become such a central part of my life that all my major friends were involved. It became my social life and that is a very dangerous thing because you lose touch with normal people and normal behaviour. Yes political hacks out there, you are not normal people.
Unscathed as I was, I’ve seen appalling things done to other people. At the 2006 ALSF Federal Convention a woman was sexually assaulted and it was covered up. Eventually it was denied and the woman was called anything from a liar to a slut. Why did this happen? She was from the wrong faction. Say what you want about the Fin laden’s (and I have plenty to say) but the simple fact is that event happened. The victim was smeared, the perpetrator went unpunished.
That would not happen in the real world. The people involved probably would never even cover something like that up if it didn’t happen in the realm of politics. However the culture is such that what is essentially appalling and unforgivable behaviour, becomes acceptable.
In 2008, Toby Latcham (of UQLC and Beauty and the Geek fame) set up a ‘smear website’ on Tim Andrews. Apparently back in the day Tim was foolish enough to have a personal journal on the internet where he said such ‘shocking’ things as he wanted a lefty girlfriend and liked Simon and Garfunkle. The smear was really notable simply for its pathetic ineptness but Tim being the big sook he is of course somewhat overreacted. The point remains that this kind of behaviour would get you fired from your job or a punch in the head. In youth politics, it is pretty innocuous really. Now that UQLC have split, Toby has been smeared in National News, though he finds it amusing. The point remains that the people who have engaged in such actions are pretty fucking low. However, it is politics so this is ‘normal’.
The NSW Right are having a big fight at the moment. Cops have been called, false accusations of assault, all manner of insults on Vexnews. None of that behaviour would be acceptable in the real world. These are just some recent examples I can quickly think of.
I often say to people that the Young Liberals are like High School, except only the nerds go there. It is almost like the poor downtrodden of the High School playground finally found a realm where they can be the bully. You can see the desperation and lust in the newbies’ eyes as they seek to avenge their subjugation back at St Barnabas. Although the end of Hyde Page’s book calls to me now, when I first read the book the power and fun and games called to me. Newbie that I was, the promise of prestige (student politicians tend to lack perspective), paid hack jobs, power. They were the interesting parts of the story to me and the poor naïve fools like me. Such is the culture; the all pervasive immorality, that you eventually lose yourself to it.
In many respects I guess that is why I love so many of the people I have met through ALSF/YL’s even though this whole post has been a big collective condemnation. I should say that not everyone is like the above and there are varying levels of personal corruption. If you can manage to take the person out of the game of politics for a second, you’ll find out that they are actually a pretty cool cat. It only lasts a second though and the corrupted soon put their game face back on. Still, many people involved are people of great integrity and as I said above most people were either honest about not liking me or were quite cool and did nothing to me that I could say was wrong.
Although I put the ‘bitter self indulgence’ disclosure up the top of this rant, I’d hate for people to think I was actually bitter about other people’s treatment of me. The only bitterness I have about anything regarding my time in Student/Youth politics is bitterness about my own behaviour and my own choices.
This isn’t about me feeling personally slighted; I just simply went out one night with basically a bunch of strangers who were welcoming and friendly. It reminded me of what real people are like. I went home and got really, really scared about the person I was becoming, the things I had been involved in, and the people I had left behind.
As Neitzsche said:
“Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you”.
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